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Accepting Help

Recently my life has been turned upside down.

Between my mom getting sick, my daughter starting her first job and the million other things going on in my life. I have realized that I need help!

Why is it so hard to ask for help or accept help from others?

I am the worst about not accepting help from others, even help from my own husband.

I try to do it all and start feeling like I am drowning in a sea of my own self pity.

After a very long, busy week and too many breakdowns to admit, I have decided I need help.

When my husband asks what he can cook for dinner, I usually scuff at him and say “it’s easier to do it myself“, but I am going to start letting him take the reigns and help me with dinner time.

When other special needs mom’s offer their help with finding new therapists or medical equipment, I usually don’t want to bother them with my problems but I am ready to accept their help.

I am ready to accept that I am human and need help sometimes.

We get so caught up with life and forget that there really is people that want to help.

I know I am guilty of telling people “let me know if you need anything”. And I forget that most people don’t want to have to ask for help, so I try to offer ways that I can help them. But we all should learn to ask for help, sometimes people just don’t know what you need help with but are willing to help you.

Accepting help doesn’t make you any less strong, we all know we can do it all but why not let your sanity have a break.

Stay strong moms!

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2020 You Are Not My Friend

2020 seriously has me throwing the bird, no slash that, a double bird, while sticking my tongue out and stomping off!

Covid came creeping in like that creepy neighbor always knocking on your door and looking into your windows to see if you are home. Now, we are all hiding out in our homes, in fear that the Corona will soon get us.

I am literally so tired of being in my home. Cleaning, cooking, remote learning with a 14 year… A stinky 14 year old boy mind you. I get the pleasure of smelling toots and bad breathe all morning while helping him get his day started.

Why did I choose remote learning you may ask…well I was worried about him adjusting to the changes the school has made for the safety of the kids. Such as masks all day, 90 minute classes, and no socialization.

Now, you may ask, why not put your mask on and get back into the World. Well first off, I am not against masks, but it is Texas. We are in the hotter than Satan’s toenails part of summer and I am a sweater. By the time I take off that mask my nose is sweating down into my mouth 😣. Not too mention I am a bit dramatic and I feel like I am suffocating in the mask after a quick grocery store run.

Nothing is fun anymore. I use to love going shopping and browsing every item in the store, now its like supermarket sweep. I get what I need and get out.

When you have a special needs child, that already has breathing problems, you just don’t know how safe it is to take them out. Even with a mask, there is uncertainty!

I just want my life back! I miss socialization! I miss parties!!

I am a planner and I like to have everything planned out and this Covid is wrecking my world. Can we have Halloween? Will there be any Fall activities? What about Christmas and Thanksgiving? There is too much uncertainty, it is driving me crazy!

Not to mention all the hate and violence 2020 has brought into the World. The hate is the worst, people are fighting just to fight, in a time when we should all be coming together as a country.

Then they tell us there are murder hornets and suspicious Chinese seeds being sent to people. That is enough 2020!

2020 has me going on strike in my own home. I stare at trash and think “someone will eventually pick that up“. No such luck, when my strike ends a day later that wrapper is still there waiting.

2020 has brought health problems to my family members and Covid made it where I could not even be with them. Having to sit in the car while calling a nurse over and over again for an update on my parent, is not fun!

I think about last year at this time, we were getting ready to take a trip to Disney World. Now, I get excited just to go to a drive through Birthday Party!

If you have a suggestions on how I can keep my sanity in this difficult time, leave me a comment! Or let me know what you are doing to keep your sanity!

Please 2020 hurry up and go away!!

Here is to 2021, may the World get back to normal!

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Confessions of a Mom

Let’s face it motherhood is hard! We have to keep these little human beings alive while also trying to be a perfect mom.

We all have those moments where we feel like we have failed as a mother. I would like to share my moments of shame, my confessions of a mom.

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I have given my children wipe baths.

Ok yes, sometimes the days are exhausting and instead of a bath my kids get wiped down with a wet wipe or wash rag.

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I have fed my kids cereal for dinner

Sometimes I do not want to even look at the oven to cook a meal so they get a nice bowl of cereal.

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I have forgotten the sunscreen

Yes, my kids have gotten burnt by the sun because of their forgetful mother. At least they got pampered by mom with aloe and popsicles.

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I have overslept

When the world was still open and the kids were in school, there were days they were late to school because of dear old mama pushing that snooze button.

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I have cried in my car

When my kiddos were younger, there were those dreaded moments when both would be screaming at the same time. So yes, I have cried in the car, supermarket, Church, pretty much everywhere.

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I have lied to my children

“Yep, Chucky Cheese is closed today.”

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Even with all my shameful mom moments, I still think I am a pretty good mom. They have everything they need, they are healthy and they are loved.

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Don’t be so hard on yourself moms. This Mother’s Day, sit back and enjoy being a mom. Look at those magnificent creatures you made and know that you are doing a great job.

Happy Mother’s Day to all you wonderful moms out there!