Depression sucks, plain and simple! I have suffered from anxiety and depression for a very long time, and I am done with it controlling my life.
Today I turned 36 and while some people feel happiness for their Birthday, I feel sadness. Sadness to be another year older, sadness for all I didn’t accomplish in that year, and sadness another year has flown by in the blink of an eye.
A year ago I was faced with the news that I may have cancer. After all the tests came back and I was told there was no cancer I was so thankful. At that moment I was so ready to live my life to the fullness and never take life for granted. I would be happy for every day that God blessed me on Earth. Now here I am a year later finding it hard to find my happiness and searching for myself in a sea of darkness.
My husband will ask ” Why can’t you just be happy?“, for him it is a choice to be happy, but for someone with depression it takes strength just to get out of bed daily. I ask myself the same question every day, “why can’t you just stop with this!”, “What is wrong with you!”.
I want happiness and I want to feel joy again! If medication is not going to work for me, I am going to fight depression!
I have made a list of 5 ways I am going to kick depressions butt!
I have heard that exercise is a great way to clear your mind and get rid of stress. I am going to sweat out the stress and anxiety!
Having support to lean on is very important. In the past, I didn’t want my friends or family to know what I was going through so I hid from the world. Not anymore. I am going to reach out to my friends and lean on my family support more.
Get out of the house
This one is a biggie. Anyone with anxiety and depression knows how hard it is to get out into the World of the unknown. Trying new restaurants, overly crowded places or just simple traffic can make you want to curl up in bed. I have spent too many weekends in bed! Staying cooped up in your home may feel safe, but is adding more triggers for your depression. Such as feeling like your missing out on life or feelings of regret when you cancel an event. I am going to start getting out and doing more no matter the anxiety!
Make A Journal
I am thinking of starting a journal to keep a log of my feelings and my blessings. A journal could be a great way to express the feelings when your down and also keep track of how you came back up.
Make a daily goal list
Make a daily goal list of achievable goals, such as take the trash out, load the washer. Keep your goal list small, don’t overdo it with a mile-long list. Reward yourself for achieving your goals, such as Mani or Pedi.
Remember to take care of yourself
It is so important to have activities or hobbies just for yourself. If you like listening to music, allow yourself time in the day just to listen to music and enjoy it. If you like painting, sign up for a painting class. Don’t feel guilty to do things for yourself.
My hopes are that by the time my 37th birthday rolls around, I will have fought my depression down and will enjoy my next birthday.
These are just my opinions, you still should consult with your doctor to have a plan of your own for fighting depression.