Body Insecurities

Body insecurities can affect more than just plus size woman. I think a lot of woman have issues loving their body. Whether it be you think you thighs are too big or your butt is too small. There is always something we wish we could change about our body’s.

I have been overweight most of my life and I cannot remember a single time I have truly loved my body. My stomach is too big, my arms are flabby and the back fat just disgusts me. I think after 35 years, that needs to change.

I have let my body insecurities control my life. Going shopping for cute plus size clothes is a nightmare! Finding plus size clothes that doesn’t look like I am a ninety year old woman is so frustratingly hard. Once I find something that looks age appropriate, problems arise. For one, when I finally find a 3x and try it on, it fits more like a 1x. Plus size clothes are rarely sized correctly, which irritates the heck out of me. Second, if by chance I find a 3x that fits like a 3x those unflattering mirrors make me look like a frumpy hag. So I usually leave the store without purchasing anything.

Sweating is another insecurity that affects my life drastically. I don’t know if it is because I am overweight or if I am just a sweater (my doctor would tell me its the weight for sure), but I do sweat more than a normal person. It is very embarrassing. Talking to other people while I wipe the sweat from my upper lip bothers me severely. I worry about what they think of me, do they think I am disgusting? Do they see that sweat butt imprint I just left on that seat I was sitting in? It is something that definitely makes me want to stay in the comfort of my home.

I am tired of letting my insecurities control my life. I do not want to be limited to what I can do and achieve in this life and I will definitely not let it take away from making precious memories with my children.

So what I am doing about it? I have not been to an amusement park in years! I let my insecurities about my body tell me that I cannot do it, but I CAN! This October I am taking my daughter to Disney World for her birthday and graduation gift to her. I have promised her this trip for so many years and I cannot tell her no anymore. She worked so hard for her accomplishment in graduating , so I am going to work hard for her. I am not going to worry that my face may be drenched in sweat. I am not going to worry if I fit on the rides. I am not going to worry about anything, except having the best time ever with my family.

Don’t let insecurities control your life! Life goes by so fast and you need to enjoy every minute of it.